Amber Portwood Opens Up on Past Plans to Hang Herself in Emotional 'Teen Mom OG' Reunion Show

On Monday night’s reunion episode of Teen Mom OG, Amber Portwood opened up about her postpartum depression.

“It went from taking care of James so amazingly to one night I had to give him to Andrew,” Portwood told Dr. Drew Pinsky of how the depression hit her out of the blue. “I couldn’t, I don’t know what happened. I’ve never felt anything like it, I never felt like that with Leah. It started feeling like a weird pressure, like I could explode.”

The mother-of-two revealed that she has had serious suicidal thoughts in the past.

“There was one night in California where I said to Andrew, ‘Just go to sleep, go to sleep. Take James with you.’ I was going to hang myself,” she revealed. “That’s real s**t.”

The 28-year-old mom also discussed how the MTV show has affected her, saying that she has been open on the show in order to help others.

“I come home, I try to talk to loving fans who I adore. I help so many f*****g people and I gotta deal with people calling me a bad mom and this that and the other when I’m going through this s**t. I’m done. I’m done with this show, I f*****g quit,” she said. “This show is done.”

In last week’s episode, Amber talked to her cousin Krystal about the night she attempted suicide, saying that her boyfriend, Andrew Glennon, could feel it.

“He’s like, ‘I’m not going to bed,’” Portwood explained. The MTV star continued, “It doesn’t feel good to go and do things, it doesn’t feel good to be alive right now.”

Amber sought help from fellow Teen Mom OG star Catelynn Baltierra, who was in rehab last year for having suicidal thoughts and anxiety.

If you or someone you know is feeling depressed and needs help, don't hesitate to call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.